Hi Everyone, thanks again for all your messages you are all incredible people
Manian the hardest thing i found coping with the treatment was watching my OH, go down hill and get so poorly, our heads are trained to think treatment makes you well but the treatment you get to fight the big C completely floors you, they nearly have to kill you to kill the cancer, its a hard thing to watch and very hard to deal with, my thoughts are with you, if you ever need to talk message me
We are just taking it one day at a time, OH has good days and bad days, his voice is getting stronger, his sense of humour is coming back, but he is very weak, half hour walk with the dogs is enough, the swallowing is proving more difficult he is again nil by mouth, he just finds it too painfull to swallow anything even with the morphene, and it sets of coughing and choking so thats a no go at the moment.
OH son is coming back up at the week end so we can all go to the review together next wednesday, that will be the biggy, really want to go and hear how everything is but i dont want to go either if that makes any sense, i just want this all over now, its bloody awful