Wow - not a bad way of looking at life Rusty - you have been through it though, and it does help.

I had a routine ladies op in Sligo 5 years ago, and was told it went well and to come back in six months.

Then I got a call to say they wanted to see me asap - two weeks after the op.

I went in and they said a load of technical waffle, and that I was being referred to Dublin.

I sat there for five hours, waiting, the a nurse came out when I was the only one left, and showed me to a room.
The Doctor in there shook my hand and said
"Sorry to hear you have Cancer Julie, sit down and I will tell you what we need to do"
Both Joe and I spent a few minutes where time seemed to stop, we just looked at each other, oblivious to what was going on in the room, or what was being said.

They did not know how bad it was
They had no hospital beds
I could not have an MRI scan unless I was an inpatient on a ward because of waiting lists.
'I could only have six months to live if they do not perform surgery
I
( me wondering if I would live much longer, how to tell mt little girl, parents, sister, firends, wondering how bad it was, was it everywhere, why did they not find it before, will Joe manage without me) had to ring in every day morning, afternoon and evening, to ask for a bed for the next five days, before they could get me in.
Here I am, after seriously major surgery at 45 years old with a young daughter.
I am older, 4 stone heavier and I hate that cause I was always thin,
I have lots of medical side effects - Hiatus Hernia awaiting major surgery for next year,
Bladder and Bowel problems and I am on lots of yuck medication.
But I am still here - Tara's Mum and Joes Wife
I am happier, busier and more able for a challenge than ever I was, and love life. Pain or no pain, tablets and extra weight - I keep going and am happy for every day
AND I WANT LOTS MORE DAYS - But I am not scared of dying, I have already lived through that with my close family in our hearts and minds - and that causes a change I wish everyone could find within themselves - I am sure the world would be happier and people would be kinder.
I must be meant to be here - I was saved from a yound death - the big C
Now enough of all that and get back to your work!!!

Julie