Sorry you're feeling sad, I think each and every one of us feels the same way when we take any animal to meet their maker - whether it's a pork chop for the freezer or a much loved pet who's suffering. As humans we CARE, you can't help that, in fact, if you didn't care it would be pointless keeping animals for meat or pleasure. You have to reassure yourself that you gave them a good, happy, healthy life and they didn't suffer.
Hope that helps you feel a bit better Julia

, if not - can I perhaps try my mind powers of distraction ?

I am 'due' to have my baby on Thursday (yeh, right

like I can control it lol!) and had my check up today with the midwifes who delivered my last baby (home birth AND on Xmas day!) now, they are determined that they want to be the ones who deliver this baby and the only day they are on-call together is tomorrow, so needless to say they poked, prodded, examined and 'swept' with gay abandon to try and 'get me going'

I'm also thinking a spot of trampolening with the kids might work, so if you start to feel down just imagine a v.pregnant, lumpy & bumpy me bouncing away like a lunatic on a trampolene

I'll keep you all posted on developments
