Today was my cancer check up and to say I was stressed does not even cover how i felt. 4 years down the line i am even mor nervous than i used to be. Doctor was running late which often is the case so i sat with others watching the clock thinking how much I wanted to go home. People come and go, some even smiling so you know they have had good news. I have to wait a couple of weeks for result which means dreading the phone going or the postman. I know i have just got to get on with things but roll on the Spring and better days.