OK I'm trying a more specific rewrite after a couple of really bad days in a pretty dire year all round I'm determined things need to change in 2014. Probably drastically, but to start with..
1. I am not going to let up on the NHS to clarify diagnose and inform me of options/achievable outcomes on all health issues through all departments and both/all 3 hospitals concerned. It wears me down and I tracked the year from when I finally went to the GP back in March because I couldn't take it all any more, and it is unbelievably hard work, easy to let it be pushed down waiting lists and backburners and easy mistaken assumptions regarding existing conditions, but N. O. is my resolution, I will not give up.
2. Without riding, hillwalking and all the other physical hobbies I used to have, I need some form of exercise that is pleasurable rather than just collapsing on a sofa between the necessary rounds of physical chores that I now find so hard. I've got physio exercises which I'm doing, and I've got a few wee things I can do just in the kitchen when waiting for the kettle like a few squats maybe or just stretching. But I need to look at facing the swimming pool and find one that I can get to that hasn't a vertical ladder exit alone as neither feet nor hands will get me out via one of those! I have heard Perth has one, possibly Glenrothes, and I must overcome the embarrassment of my current physical state to have any hope of improving it. So I will.
3. I have already taken the step of advertising 2 ponies on the breed sales list, tho they may not be up yet due to office holidays. But any foals born this spring, regardless of how much I like and want to hang onto them, WILL be advertised straight away for sale at weaning and I will not let a good home with a decent price go by due to my addictive behaviour about breeding and future bloodlines. I need sales before weanlings get too strong for my hands to be sure of holding, so I will be ready from day one for the fact that nothing stays bar the oldies and crocks I have, and a breeding mare as long as I have my stallion who needs the company plus one as a spare if the one with a foal has to be removed for treatment or foalhandling. And no more!
Not all achievable by Easter but hopefully an improvement in terms of smart targets and all that...