So yesterday, having had a sore foot for 3 months or so, it seemed too much to climb the furthest gate into the furthest paddock and hike down to check a pony was grazing in a dip rather than gone missing in the period since last checked close up - instead I climbed up the top of the gate to peer down the field and yes, there she was safe and sound, water running fine (reason for being there at that moment), job done. Except then I lose balance and fall back, in that split second manage to opt to jump clear backwards rather than risk tangling in/over gate with an attempted save, and land on both feet - result. Except I am a lot older and heavier and the shock absorbers aren't so great, got a jar to the ankles but no major damage - fine, get back to my day and forget it all..
Until the afternoon when for reasons I can't work out, my right leg feels too big for its skin, it's tingling and a bit sore above/outside the knee - assume I've caught a nerve sitting at my desk or something but it gets worse. Hmm, all kinds of ideas from relationship to the damaged foot the other side, maybe overwork, maybe a spreading rheumatic type thing going on? Carry on pottering, clear out the chicken coop but find bending the knee uncomfortable - finish jobs and get to evening still in pain and a little confused but it isn't til I go down to the far pony field gate that I actually remember the fall

and suddenly the connection is made, cause, effect

just like going back to a room where you thought of doing something when you get to where you are going to do it and can't remember what it was..

I know I have a poor memory but forgetting a fall off a field gate when trying to work out why I have a sore leg, surely that's a bit doddery even for me
Anyway, clarity achieved, I'm out of arnica so opt for cuprofen and red wine, feet elevated over the arm of the sofa and strangely life is good. Why? Still in pain and still not looking forward to coping with yet another mobility restricting injury, cancellation of plans to go a walk or go swimming or both over the weekend. Why? Just because it's simple, I know what it is and how it happened and tho not the specifics or long term risks of yet another arthritis point, I have so many undiagnosed and not understood causes of pain and mobility issues that just the understanding is all it takes to make me happy.
Today I am twice as slow, one bad foot the other bad leg that prefers not to bend at the knee, so I waddle like a duck and every now and then a mis-step leads to muttering under the breath which is not a quack but ends with a similar sound..

I am still old and overweight and less able than ever, I have no idea if this'll be healed in time for moving 5 ponies from that furthest end paddock to the barn, move the mares foals and stallions into what would have been their field and then those 5 into what would have been the stallion's field if the neighbour hadn't put his wee welshie pet mare out beside it so I have to totally reorganise for his stupidity, while suffering the results of my own..
But hey, I'm still going, I have one thing I know that I didn't have yesterday, and I think other than the half speed regular necessary animal related chores (hay, egg hunting etc) I'm going to have a more sedentary weekend.. I have some web stuff to do, a story to write and a book to read. I guess today's the day for it
My memory must really be declining, and as for standing up the 2nd top rung of a field gate, I must have forgotten I'm not 18 any more

or 28, or 38.. Don't know why I'm sharing my stupidity but maybe I had a reason and forgot it..