Hello all you lovely people. I'm here at stupid o'clock in the morning. Can't sleep. Head full of 'stuff'.
I went on my website too and tried to think of all the good stuff for which I do have to be grateful for and put a posting on my 'diary'. We have fabulous animals who I believe love us and glorious friends, some who are neighbours who turn up with a much needed bottle of wine or a meal and some who are found in unexpected places like here. I'm so touched by your encouragement and kindnesses. We are in deep hole of doody right now but we've been in the s**t before and got out so we can do again. It's just been a particularly vicious session of late and we're so very tired and possibly a little depressed. You wake thinking "What's going to go tits up today?" and I think more does go wrong when things are feeling awful, often because you don't cope as efficiently with day-to-day stuff because you're so worn out and tired and tearful. I have caught myself thinking "Why are we doing this? What is the point of it all? Are we the right people for this life?" when I LOVE this life. It's just you experience the extremes of EVERYTHING in in it don't you and it ISN'T easy alot of the time. I've caught myself wishing to be without all the animals when I'd be absolutely MISERABLE without them. I kind of need sheep and chickens and dogs like I do caffeine. I'm addicted to them. I think I'd be more ill and stressed out without them. I do wonder wether we ought to scale it down a bit sheep wise, maybe, just maybe, we'd manage a little easier then. Barry and I might find time to do the things we can do to make some money even. We haven't any time like that at the moment and I believe it's important to have that outlet to do 'your own thing'. He's a fabulous artist but never paints now, I am a decent ceramicist, I can sing, I can do great things with crappy furniture but we never have time. If we reduce our load elsewhere perhaps we'll find the time will be there. I dunno. Shed load of dosh would help too
. If it weren't for my mum getting me an Aldi shop every week, we'd barely eat. That's not a good place to be is it!
Re the 'What can we do to help?' - Does anyone know of anyone who would like to buy a very old, and what could be a very beautiful, Rolls Royce (1933 20/25 Sedanca Deville-prob spelt wrong!). That would inject some dosh into our money woes which would mean less of me pacing about at stupid o'clock. Needs serious love and care but all is there except the lady on the bonnet and the picnic basket. It's no use to us but the money would be. Valued at £8,000 but anything reasonable considered.
Cheers guys X
back at ya.
