Thankyou for all your support. Believe me I'm not a 'poor me' sort of person but I just had to get it off my chest. I know that death is part of life and in some circumstances death is the kinder of the two so tough decisions have to be made regardless of emotion. Quite a few of our animals come to us because they are no longer wanted by their owners (Remy if you read this I don't mean Bugsy
), especially the horses, one old hunter was going to get sent to the hounds just because he had outlived his usefulness to the owners. He came to us looking skeletal but we fed and gently fittened him up and my daughter started dressage on him. He'd never done it before but took to it like a professional. He had 3 years of happy healthy semi-retirement with us and died aged 17. We took on a 36 year old perfectly fit and healthy 12h pony who was going to be put to sleep because the owner considered she took up too much of her time. She had 4 years more of retirement with us and was PTS because it was time for her not because she was too much bother. 2 cats from CPL and 4 from rescued abandoned litter (one of which was Chatterbox Charlie). Martha we had had from a pup and was part of the family for 15 years so that was a tough decision but it had to be done for her sake.
Dans - So true, it is the remembering of the good times and what we gave them that carries us through.
lachlanandmarcus - you'd hope it would end soon wouldn't you? but.... two 12 year old cats - one just had blood tests and the other has minimal kidney function (was told after RTA that her kidneys wouldnt keep her going for more than 3 months - 5 years on and current vets think she is amazing. 12 year old golden retriever has thyroid issues, spinal issues and stomach issues but is actually happy as larry and pain free. So I am dubious that the crappy animal stuff may end soon but
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The loss of animals is indeed heartbreaking but I do acknowledge that others (and I) have lost family and friends and this cannot compare.
tizaala - I was considering that - it does seem a bit ironic at the moment doesn't it? But... in the bigger scheme of life I think I am still a luckylady.