I think that unless you have a private income

or loads stashed away

, you really do have to have a job. Making a living from smallholding is a far less attainable dream than having a smallholding and working to support it. When we began we were both working full time, then I gave up work once our children left home. Now we are just starting out as pensioners and we'll see how we go with that, but we have no mortgage and only ourselves to support, and we can choose just how we live. We need some sort of income to pay the electricity bill, buy toilet paper and detergent, pay the rates, empty the septic tank, run the vehicles, those sorts of things.
When I was still working I found that because I knew I was going home to such a wonderful place, I could put up with whatever work threw my way.
Is it possible to change your job? If not, can you identify just what it is about the job that you are unhappy about? Is it the job itself or just having to work? Is it the people at work? If you can sort out the problems then life at work will be easier and you can enjoy your land and animals, without even having to think about work.