Thanks Ellied - Why until this year?
Long story with several factors - less ties to the Trossachs/West Coast since last winter, but more here; less mobility for long distance trekking or voluntary work in physically demanding environments, and less interest in some of the alternate income forms I'd trained for and set up than when I did that plan!
Plan V I think it is now

is getting the holding looking a bit better and thinking of renting it for a year or two to someone that could take on chooks and cats and doesn't have dogs or cats of their own but wants to try smallholding based living for a while before buying, or while acquiring skills or work in this area. If they could keep some of the "just grazing" older ponies and have space for their own sheep or whatever, so much the better, but I have a friend who'd take a few to ride and sell on once they had more space, or I might get a few sales or breeding loans or persuade someone where I used to keep 4 ponies when I had only 4(!) to let me lease a hill field and check it or have another friend check it for me while I'm away so I can test NOT having this all before selling up, and someone can test HAVING it all to do before changing their life permanently too.
I'm 48 and mostly feel 84 but I can't help wondering what else I'd do with my life if not this, yet getting a break might let me do it better if I come back, or know I was right to give up if I did that. So, waiting for various things to point the way and trying to be more flexible and get some of what I need sooner than waiting for it all to fall into place and then be a mistake!