LMP ! you have my sympathies.
i nearly put a *rant* on last week. things were getting me really down...it has been an horrible year.
firstly i had surgery on my shoulder last december, which didnt go to plan. I am still off work with permenant nerve damage (my arm aches all the time, my hand feels it has been rubbed with nettles, and i have lost the dexterity in my hand.) i am an anaesthetic nurse...and am now not safe to practice!!!! sick pay ran out in September.
In february i lost my wonderful arab x welsh cob to colic. The blood supply to his gut just shut down...nothing could be done for him...PTS 5th Feb... I still miss him dreadfully even though i have a new girl, Hetty.
then in June, whilst at camp America, my daughter developed kidney problems. She has FSGS...her immune system is destroying her kidneys :-( this is at best life changing, at worst life threatening..she is only 19. Last year it was reactive arthritis- she was crippled for months! My beautiful daughter is the female version of Benjamin Button. she has so many old lady tablets to take - last count > 20 per day.
we have had various cats and dogs PTS this year....
My grandma (95yrs) is causing us a lot of concern at the moment because she goes completely off the rails at night time and screams the Residential home down... they have tried meds but that makes her worse....she is going to end up being moved into a psych unit or worse.....she is just very very scared of dying...(strong as an ox, so it isnt going to happen any time soon). So my Mum is trying to sit up all night wiht her AND carry one with her holiday cottage business during the day....this cant continue. Mum is >70 and has had breast cancer, skin cancer and was in intensive care for three weeks with bowel problems...all in the last ten years.
On the bright side; i have lost > 1 stone due to worry and stress. I live in the most wonderful place in the whole world, and i am Pollyanna by nature - so IT WONT BEAT ME!!
My little rant over - sorry for the highjack... XXXXxxx
Emma T