I think to even start to kill your animals at home you must be experienced. Getting it wrong would be a total nightmare. Talking about doing it is not easy I would expect. You raise them, could you then kill them and make a good quick job. We take ours to Dingwall and that is hard enough. I take them in myself as they are used to seeing me every day. I stay calm but once back in the car I feel so bad but we raise them for meat and I make sure they get a good life with the best of care. Killing them myself, never going to happen.